Shhhhhh...

What's going on everybody... I'm at work right now sneaking on the computer to write this blog entry, hopefully I don't get caught. ohh wait, the boss it coming...Ok she's gone. Anyway, I miss blogging SOOOOO much, I think I'm addicted. Wait, the phone is ringing... they hung up on me. I'm trying my hardest to get my internet back up. The house is coming along. One room is almost complete, they are putting the floors down now. I went to a Thrift Shop and found a decent full size mattress, so now I just have to find a way to get it home. My Fridge is on its way, so I'm happy about that. It's all working out.

There are so many things on my head its crazy. I just want to let it all out. Yesterday was my 2nd year Anniversary with my boyfriend. We went out to eat in Little Italy. Being with him yesterday made me realize a lot of things about how we interact, what we both want in a relationship, and the type of person I want to become. Like I said, I have a lot of things on my mind.

I just want to say thanks to everyone who still stops by and checks up on me. TRUST ME, this BLOG IS NOT OVER, its just the Summer time, the NEW SEASON will start up REALLY SOON!

Want to give a Shout-Out to Trent Jackson, who is always there when you need him. Larry Lyons II, I need to see you, we need to talk... you have to help me generate some positive energy right about now. No4Real, where you at? We need to talk, lol. Stone, good seeing you man. I didn't know you was such a Jokester! Frank... I read your blog, and I'm cooking something up really soon, we most def' need to talk about the issues that are plaguing the Black Gay Community. SmilingontheDL, we need to talk, I didn't know you was so deep! Valentino, I am loving your journey in the ATL! Speaking of the ATL, What up BruthaFree! *wink* Everyone else, I am trying to read as many blogs as I can (while at work), I want to get to know every single last one of you guys.

I am still going to post photos from GAY PRIDE, as soon as my Godbrother calls me back. MALIK WHERE ARE YOU???

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THIS JUST IN...

Gay Blogger saves Christopher Street from Terroist Attack
by Shawn "My Hero" QT

Saturday, July 9, 2005.
A group of gay socialites where enjoying a night out on New York's, Christopher Street in Manhattan. The street is known for its widely open gay and lesbian community, where many an ride bikes and lay out on the grass on its newly renovated pier, and stroll down Christopher where porn shops, gay bars, and gay tourist items are the main attraction. The PATH, the train that connects NY to NJ via the Trans Hudson, has a station on Christopher. ShawnQt, a fellow blogger, and group of friends proceeded to leave around 11:30pm, to venture back to New Jersey, when they spotted a "unattended bag" on the PATH tracks. "I am always aware of my surroundings," said Shawn, " I didn't want to take any chances, so we called it in." The police came in a matter of minutes, as they investigated the call. Within 10 minutes after, all transit riders where evacuated from the Station. "There were cop cars, and something that look like a bomb truck all on the street. We were scared." The investigation, took 30 minutes. The bag was removed, and the station re-opened. There was no explosive devices in the bag. "Better safe then sorry I always say, I don't want my fellow gay brothas going out like that," says Shawn with closing remarks.

The Boom Boom

"The Boom Boom"
by ShawnQt

I look at you
My body is gyrating at you
As we listen to the Boom…
The Boom, Boom.

Look at my head bang
Look at my arms pump
I look at you across the room
As we vibe to the Boom…
The Boom, Boom.

It is you Light skin
That I am into
With your sexy eyes
lips to die for
I want more of you…
The Boom, Boom.

I’m good with you winking at me
with your smile I must agree
I guarantee
that you and me
Half ghetto, Half artsy
can be sexual in the most non-biblical
yet spiritual sexual fantasy.

It is with you that my blood flows for
It is you that has brought me to this Tribal ground
/slash/ dance floor
It is you and The Boom, Boom.
That is making me want more
Making me explore
the depths of your jeans
praying for your pleasure
And your extasy.
I succumb to you…
And only you
As we both become the Boom…
The Boom, Boom.

Under Construction: Chapter 2

So I get to the pool and decide to go up on the diving board. Why in the hell did I decide to get on the diving board? I'm climbing up the ladder. Step by step. Hand over Hand. Foot over Foot. Thinking to myself, all I can do is go up. Everything will be fine. Imagine how good it will feel to master one of the greatest dives in adulthood. Getting my own apartment. So I'm climbing up. Saving money. Climbing some more. Getting my design decor together. Climbing some more... Mentally preparing myself for this one moment. So I'm on the board. My mom is poolside, cheering me own. My boyfriend is there, my best-friend is there, friends, family, co-workers... All of them are down there cheering me on.

Why in the hell did I get on this diving board? I can't swim. You would be scared too if you was thrown in the deep end with no blow up duckies to hold on to.

I have been at my apartment for 3 weeks now. It's not that bad. I have moved out most of my things from my mom's house, just have to move my dressers later. I have my bed now, so I don't have to sleep on the floor anymore. I plan to get a Full or Queen size bed soon though. I'm tired of sleeping on a Twin. Most of my clothes are in black bags, but I got a new steamer, so no more ironing for me! I love it! I finally set up my DVD player, so my mom gives me a few of her Netflix videos. The "Jem & The Holograms" DVD is coming soon, LOL. My computer is setup, but NO INTERNET! I'm dying without it. I'm on my boyfriend's computer now, but I'm waiting until the house is fully renovated before I can get my internet set back up.

On the downside, my stove is not hooked up, and I don't have a microwave... nor a fridge. I have to eat out every night, but my grandmother makes me dinner from time to time. I ate peanut butter and jelly for a week straight. I didn't mind.

On the upside, the living room is coming together perfectly! I have my coaches, pillows, rug, end tables, Lamps, all set up nicely. I just bought some curtains from IKEA the other day, and a cool azz shelf. I want to get some plants, but I don't have the time to really take care of a real ones. I bought a big frame to put this illustration I did. I have to find a way to blow it up. I plan to use a lot of my original artwork. I just can't see myself, being an artist, using a painting I can do myself. It feels good to know I am creating my own space.

I think of all of this as I step myself inch by inch to the end of the diving board. I'll be alright, I'll be ok... So then why won't I dive in???

[coming soon, photos from GAY PRIDE 2005]