To my girl, Lisa.

Dear Lisa,
Hey girl... I just want to say that I miss you. Your craziness. Your creativity. Your compassion. Your spirit. TLC was a big part of my teenage life. Yet, you know that. It wasn't until I was older that I understood the person you are, and the person you was trying to be. A Supernova... a light so powerful and so bright, that when it explodes, its energy is released into a million pieces. Then those pieces are formed to create a new light. Spiritually, you was like my ray of light.


It seemed like yesterday, you and the rest of the girls were a team. The best female group of all time. You stood for independence, freedom, & standing up for oneself. You was conscious about the issues of the world, on top of making all your fans dance, cry, and feel good about ourselves. I miss TLC, it just isn't the same anymore since you been gone.


To you, we weren't just fans. We were like an extended family. Even when the fans got together to see you in concert, or go to a TLC event in your honor, we came together strong. Fellow TLC fans were like family to me as well. We had so much fun together. We would do anything, say anything, sing to the top of our lungs, and just enjoy the experience that you and the girls created.


The realization that your gone still doesn't seem real. You was so vibrant, so in your face, your silence saddens everyone that loved you. All I can do is put in your cds, and turn up the volume when your rap comes on, and jam like I never jammed before. The only I can do is to spread the knowledge you wanted everyone in the world to know. To Love yourself, love one another, be at peace with your spirit, and express yourself until your heart hurts!

I love you, and I miss you.

[shawn]

The Ghetto Gets Healthy?

...so I was on my cell phone talking to my boyfriend about how proud I was about one of the logos he designed, finally got made into a T-shirt. It looks really good. So I was still talking to him, walking to the "Chicken Shack"...

[for those of you who don't know what that is, it is a place that sells various types of food like, chicken, burgers, pizza, ice cream, gyros, ribs, fish, shrimp, & bean pies all at the same place, and all at a very low price.]

... to get some dinner. I was telling my boyfriend, I was tired of eating fatty foods, even though I loooooove my Italian Cheeseburgers with extra ketchup. Hmmmmm. So I get in there, and of course the homeless people were asking people for change, and this loud azz sister was asking for a "lucy"...

[for those of you who don't know what that is, it is a single sold cigarette]

... and a couple of brothas were banging on the glass wall, to get the cashier's attention. So I'm looking at the menu, thinking should I get some chicken or just say "fuck it" and get my usual Italian Cheeseburger...

[for those of you who have never been blessed with one of these, GET ONE!]

...so, I noticed they added some new numbers to the menu. Hmmm... #32 is Grilled Chicken with rice & vegetables? #33 is Chicken Wings with rice & vegetables? #34 is Fish, and you know it, RICE AND VEGETABLES????

Since when did the Ghetto get so Healthy?

I wasn't complaining, I got me some chicken wings, rice & vegetables and a 50 cent Pineapple C&C soda for $4.15! I was so excited! So I get home and cracked that baby open, and my food carton was steaming with yellow rice, mixed with carrots, string beans, peas, and lima beans. Hmmmmm. I'm so full right now. I'm so happy the "Chicken Shack" finally has a healthier alternative. The rice was banging.

Make sure you guys check out yours, HEY, you never know.

IT'S ABOUT TO BE A WHAT?

GIRLFIGHT!

Feeling the need to pull out Lil Kim's weave?
Ever wanted to shut up lil spoiled Paris Hilton?
Want to kick Beyonce's bootylicious azz?
Now's your chance....

GO TO: celebritygirlfight.com

[my gift to you, release your frustrations]

Night Out on the Town

Me and boyfriend went out on our first date since we got back together on Saturday. I really wanted to take him out somewhere we both never been too. Some place classy and entertaining was my goal. I was going to pay for everything, and not let him know where we was going until we got there.

I took the train up to Brooklyn, NY to pick him up, and we took the subway up to Times Square. I took him to this spot on 42nd street called, BB King's Blues Club & Grill. It's mostly a venue for musical artist, but they have a restaurant area with live entertainment called Lucille's Grill. They have southern food there, so I knew it would be something we both like. Ribs and Pig, Holla!

"The inside of Lucille's Grill"

"Get anything you want on the menu", I said.
He smiled. I felt he wasn't trying to break my pockets, so he didn't go all out and get the most expensive thing on the menu. The menu was already pretty high, but it was more about the experience then anything. The band started playing around the end of our meal, it was a really romantic setting. The only thing that sucks about being gay is that we have to be mindful of public affection. It's hard to really get into the experience when you have to worry about what other people think. I wanted to hold his hand while we talked, wipe food off his face. We had a good time anyway.

After that, we went to Toys R US, LOL.
I'm telling you, we are some grown azz kids. I love being youthful, and treasuring the things that made us both love life as a child, but we are both very mature and take care of adult business when need be. The Toys R US venture was not part of the plan, but we had to check and see if they had anything new.

[I was looking for a professor x marvel legend action figure, and of course all the scalpers grabbed him all out]

So after that, we went to see...

Kung Fu Hustle is so funny! Everyone has to see this movie. The graphics were good, and it was really funny. For some reason it felt like it had similarities to black comedies. I think it had something to do with all the cursing. I don't know exactly how to explain it. You just have to see it. It opened in NYC and LA this weekend early, so he wasn't expecting us to see it, so that was a big surprise. I really enjoyed myself, me and my baby...

Then we got back, and fucked all night. LOL.

[i'm kidding... it was in the morning.]

I VOTED FOR...

[in other news, did you see Tyra wail on Tiffany on America's Next Top Model? DAMN!]

WHY NIKKO, WHY!

I'm so upset. I voted every week, and look what happens. Nikko Smith is one of the contestants on American Idol that was booted the other night. He was voted off in the semi-finals, but was put back into the Top 12 when one of the other contestants dropped out. He was the "Comeback Kid". Now he's gone... and I lost a $5 dollar bet to my Mom that he would make the Top 3, sigh.

Remember her.


This is Lotoya London. She was on the show last year, and I voted for her every week as well. I was so sad when she left as well. Actually she is coming out with an album this month, so if she can come back with an album, I know Nikko will too. Check out www.latoyalondon.com .


Everyone says I like Nikko because he kinda looks like me, and has the same style as me, but that's besides the point, lol.... the brotha can sing. Who am I going to vote for now? Maybe You guys can help me out.

A) Vote for Anwar. He's gay, black, and he's from the same city I'm from. Support the Gays!

B) Vote for Vonzell or Nadia. We all love black divas. Vonzell has an amazing voice that can't be touched, and Nadia has a style all her own. Sure we voted for a black female last year, but LET'S DO IT AGAIN! Support the Divas!

C) Vote for Carrie. She has one of the most powerful voices on the show. She has a similiar style as Kelly Clarkson, and you see how much success she had. She's dumb and cute, and probably lives on a farm. Support the Country Girl!

or D) Vote for Consantine. He has this stare that just hypnotizes you to vote for him. He's a strong performer, and much cuter then Bo. He looks like one of the vampires from Queen of the Damned, and girls love him. Support the Cute Rocker!

LET ME KNOW, I NEED IDOL HELP!