SWIM

It's like rocking the boat
as you stroke it for me
your azz intensifies
as my fingers go deep... deep
but there ain't no time to sleep

Let me and you become wet
drowning in the scent of you
from balls to crawls
of my fingertips across your nips

Your like the coast
and all I want to do is reach shore
and explore for treasure
and ecstasy beyond measure

You got my dick on float
touching the sky
as if it was reaching cloud 9
or is that my size?

You got me ready
man on board holding steady
pulsating hurricane waves
not even the lifeguard can save

Let me swim in it
navigate and submerge in it
turn you around and repeat it
stroke it back and forth until you scream for it

And when you blow your hole
and let your water fall
think of me and remember
who made your man go overboard

[2D]

Go Idol Go!

Like everyone else I have been watching American Idol, and been trying to pick my favorites. It's a hard decision because we really haven't seen what everyone can do... but I decided to pick my top three boys and top three girls [and others] that I will be rooting for:

THE GUYS

Ace Young: He has a very nice tone to his voice, and he seems serious, musical wise. He's a looker as well.


David Radford: I'm not big on crooners, but he has to have something else to him! It's in the smile!


Kevin Covais: The underdog with the big voice, that loves Hip Hop and Kanye West! Yeah!

THE GALS

Mandisa: Frenchie Part 2? She's a big momma with a big voice, and big heart... and she loves the Lord!


Lisa Tucker: The cutiest girl with a beautiful voice... Don't she remind you of Aaliyah?


Kathrine Mcphee: Yeah she's a goof ball, but she can blow! I love her personality!


Who will I love watching?

Brenna Gethers: One Word, DIVA!!!!

Who will I love 2 hate?

Gedeon Mckinney: He is so damn cocky, I can't take it!

WTF?

The White Ray Charles?

Please Note: I'm not going to make my official picks of who will be the American Idol UNTIL I HEAR THEM SING! WE shall see!

DON'T FORGET TO READ THE POST BELOW!

Do Your Parents Know?

So I'm in the car with my mom, and we are going to Popeyes. I'm on the phone with Trent Jackson, and my mom asks me who is he. I told him a friend from California.

Mom: "How do you know someone from California?"

Me: He's a blooger.

Mom: What the hell is a blogger?

Then I realized... my mom doesn't even know half the things that go on in my life! How do I explain to her what a blogger is? I don't want to tell her its like an online journal, then she'll go into the whole speech about how dangereous it is to put personal information online. Blah Blah Blah, I know.

Me: Its a community of people that wish to share there views online via there personal website.

Mom: [strange look]

Me: It's a very intellectual medium, except for Trent's Blog!

Mom: [stranger look]

Me: Actually, Trent has a book out.

Mom: Ooooooooooo that's nice! So can I buy it in stores?

Now I'm thinking to myself? Do you have to be validated by having a book now a days? Damn! I tell my mom I'm a blogger, and she looks at me strange, I tell her Trent is a blogger and has a book and she is ready to go on his Book Tour. [If only she knew!]

So my question is...

Do your parents know you blog? If so, what do they think?

[mom if you ever read my blog, i love you!]

Best Weekend!

Just want to say THANK YOU to everyone who left a comment on my last post! Wow, 30 comments and over 1000 views!? That's what's up! I have been going through it for the last couple of weeks, just trying to get over this situation. Sometimes I feel guilty for liking another guy, but this other guy really makes me happy... and I have to move on with my life. I just hope that my ex is ok. So with that, let me tell you about my weekend.

Friday
I went to work late because my boss said I could come in later and get some rest since I stayed the night before. I was so excited about that. So I get to work, and everything was pretty simple. I'm working on a menu for a new restaurant, an invitation for an event in New York, and a cover for an Ad Journal. So at the end of the day, and I got my check and also my bonus check, so I was excited about that! More Money, More Money, More Money!

I headed to the Train Station to Meet My Omar, so that we can go to New York to do some shopping. I always enjoy Omar's company, we can go from a deep conversation to just being silly. We went to H&M because my friend "Key" gave me a gift card for Christmas, and I wanted to get an outfit for Tuesday. So we go in, and I love this store, but there wasn't much that was catching my attention. Then I saw these NICE jeans in the corner, I tried them on, and they was too big! So we went to another H&M which is right down the street to see if they had my size. I found them, tried them on for Omar, he said... "Those are Hot, You Look Bowlegged in them!"

:)

So yeah, I got them. We then went down to Times Square to go to the Comic Book Store. On our way there, the new guy I'm talking to called me. He just got out of class, and said he was going to meet me in NYC to chill. I was shocked because he never comes to NYC, so I was happy he was on his way. The comic book store was closed, so we went to Toys R Us to see if they had any new Marvel Legends. To my surprise, they had them!

Bishop...

& X-23!

I was on Cloud Nine after that, you couldn't tell me nothing! Once we left the store, we met up with my dude and tried to find something to eat. Sorry Omar, but we just ended up at Wendy's, even though I knew he didn't want to go. After we ate, we headed to the train station, and found another Comic Book Store! Ohh yes! I got all the comics I missed out on... can this day get any better?

We got to Jersey City, to get in the car. We dropped Omar off, and headed to my house.

We slept. :)

Saturday

We got up early to head to the bank so I could could get some money out. My computer is running sooooo slow right now, so I'm going to use my tax money to upgrade my system. Since my dude works at COMPUSA part time, I got to take advantage of his employee discount. I was able to get an external hardrive, some memory, an antivirus program, a USB port Hub, some blank cds, and a DVD cleaner for LESS THAN 300 bucks!

Thanks again! :)

So then we had to pick up an entertainment center for him and his dad's new apartment. So we headed to Walmart. Question? Do you guys flirt in public? I think that is such a turn on! So we get the entertainment center and headed to his apartment. I was shocked because there were some issues previously about me going to his place in relation to his Dad & Brother. Long story! I actually mentioned in an earlier post. I told him, you can't live for other people, but I surely didn't want his brother beating the hell out of me! To make a long story short, all of us ended up putting the entertainment center till 2 in the morning, and I'm still alive, lol. We had fun. The snow was really coming down, and there was no way he was taking me back to Newark that night. We sat up watching a movie, eating icecream with sprinkles, and then we slept. :)

Sunday

[I almost forgot, yesterday we went to Woodbridge Mall, and I got a New Beast and New Magneto! Four New Figures in one weekend is a record!]

We slept in since he didn't have to go to Church that morning. I called Omar to wish him a HAPPY BIRTHDAY! He's Legal now! My dude made us Hamburgers and French Fries, and we got the "Ites", and took a longgggg nap. We got up, picked up his Dad, and we all ate some food, and he took me home. Now mind you, I forgot my phone at home all weekend, so I got some serious cursing out from two of my friends. "Key" who thinks I'm ignoring him, which wasn't the case, and my God Brother Malik, who's birthday was also today! HAPPY BIRTHDAY LEAKY! Not my fault, just got snowed in.

So overall, I had the best weekend!

How was yours?

SO SICK OF LOVE SONGS...

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"So Sick" by Ne-Yo
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ME: BEING A MAN ABOUT IT

I'm sorry I haven't been posting lately... a brotha is going through it. There are just unfinished resolutions in my life that I honestly don't know how to handle. I wasn't even going to blog about this, but its hard to blog about how everythings is going fine in your life is, when on the real, it isn't. I am still dealing with my recent break-up with my ex. Yes the same guy that I have been with for the past 2 years. The same guy that broke up with me. The same guy I got back with on my birthday last year. The same guy that didn't get me a present for our anniversary. The same guy that broke up with me again. And yes, the same guy I have been secretly trying to get back with.

For the past couple of months, we have been trying to work it out. He said he has changed, and honestly I have been seeing changes in him. He has been a lot more attentive to me. He has been a lot more romantic. He even was the one to took me to see the Color Purple Musical. He has tried everything in his power to bring us back together. He wanted us to be together... forever.

Forever.

I love him so much. I was his first boyfriend. I was his first... sexually. He was mine as well. I put so much into the relationship, so much energy, so much love, and each time he broke up with me, or he felt he needed a break, it was something that I couldn't change about myself. And what did I do? Accept it and Deal with it. So after the whole LOVE STORY, he comes back to me because a guy he was dating, really hurt him. I consoled him, and we started getting intimate again. I really did miss him.

But was I ready to get back with him? I was already used to being single, and was seeing people, but like I said, I did miss him. I was very hesitent. Would he break my heart again? Would he get over his urge to date other men, I mean I was the only boyfriend he has ever had. So I stopped dating guys, and tried to make it work.

The idea of being with him, one last time, forever... I guess it effected me. The idea of being with him, one last time to break my heart, forever... I guess that effected me too. But could our love carry us through it. So like he says, how can I go from Loving him so hard, to breaking up with him in 2 weeks.

I met a guy.

We met as friends, and he is a really cool guy. He was interested in me, and I do admit, I was interested in him. How could I so easily be attracted to this guy if I have someone I love on the other side? The question has been driving me crazy for the past couple of weeks. Then the idea of being with my ex, one last time, forever or him breaking my heart, effected me more. My attraction for this new guy, and my love for him really got me going crazy...

I can't say that I don't love him, he has been with me for 2 years, and I have been letting him know how much I did... but I never told him about my doubts... maybe I should have, because when I told him a week ago that I couldn't be with him, and that I was seeing someone else, it wouldn't have broken his heart. It still hurts me that I could do this to him.

We have tried talking on the phone, and I tried explaining it to him. He wasn't listening. He has even blogged it about it on his blog... so I thought that maybe, if he reads this, it might help him understand.

I'm sorry. I love you. But right now, I can't be with you. I don't know what the future holds, but right now, I can't say that we will be together in the future. I hope you can understand this. I should have told you about my doubts, and I fucked up on my part. I'm not here to try and make it seem like I'm an Angel, because I'm not, but I'm just being a man about it. I'm being honest with you, and I always was with you. Your important in my life, we have so many shared experiences, and there isn't a day I don't think about you... but my heart can't give anymore. I don't like to bring up the past, but all the times you said you needed a break, or you needed time for you, I NEED THAT FOR ME. With this new guy, or not. My decisoin to end it with you, was not soley on me trying to get with someone else. It just made me realize and think about things that was going on with my feelings.

It is possible to love someone, and not feel like you can be in a relationship with them. The thing that hurts me the most is, I feel like I lost my bestfriend. Yet, this is my time to deal with me, and deal with my own happiness, and maybe my own faults. I couldn't be with you forever, knowing that I still wanted to have attractions for other people, and I couldn't be with you not knowing you got all the experiences you needed to experience. I never meant to break your heart, but always know there is an energy in the universe, where we exist. Even though you may hate me, may feel hurt in my presense, know that our love could never die, because I know GOD will protect that energy.

Pray.

I love you, and I'm sorry.